I had thought I had it all together since people typically came to me for advice. Professionally, I was on top of the world, and then I had the rug ripped out from under me.
If I had been seeing a psychiatrist or a therapist before the breakdown, maybe somebody would have been able to detect that I was off balance. During my stay in the hospital, I was given medicine to stabilize my moods, and I spoke with a therapist.
Shock footage: Back in February, shock video footage emerged of Carrie onstage, pacing around, singing snippets of a song and stopping along the way to clean up after her dog who had urinated and soiled the stage'I wasn't drunk. On the ship, I had gone to AA meetings a couple of times, and those guys were very sweet and grounding for me. I was writing in books; I would have written on walls.
They actually came onstage and saved me,' she says. I literally would bend over and be writing on the ground and (my assistant) would try to talk to me, and I would be unable to respond,' she recalls.'We did cocaine on the set of Empire, in the ice planet [the second film of the original trilogy].
This is a page I have wanted to write for a long time because it is SUCH an important topic, and because it is the issue I get the most questions and requests about.
However, it is a difficult subject for me personally because this was the main way my bipolar symptoms became obvious, and my most serious manic episode manifested.
I wondered, feared, if this is how people felt about me. She had an opinion, or at least a feeling, about everything. When bipolar people meet, we find an immigrant intimacy, a solidarity. I don’t think this is just because of mood swings, but because manic types often wreck their lives.
There are times when people with BP simply cannot exercise good judgment. People with BP WILL do things that affect their families. Although its really impossible to separate the illness driven behaviors from their personality, spouses and other family members need to understand that BPD changes the way people, think, feel and act. Not to do so is unfair because it holds people to unrealistic standards and disappointment becomes the inevitable outcome.
I didn’t know what he was talking about or how it could apply to me, so I just continued with my life.
A year later I was in New York City catching up with loved ones when I unexpectedly had a fit in my hotel—yelling, throwing things, crying and raising enough hell that the staff called an ambulance.
Bipolar infidelity is a common – and tragic – consequence of mania and hypersexuality.
NOW is the time to discover the facts and avoid the pitfalls.